November is National Novel Writing Month and I had decided that I would give it a shot this year. The task is to write 50,000 words in a month and as hard as it seems, it is even harder when life comes into play.

Within the first day I had about 3,000 words written and I was planning on keeping that pace. Planning being the key word. I got to about 10,000 words and decided I hated it. It felt cheap and it wasnt the story I was trying to capture....needless to say I scrapped it. (I do still have it saved) I started writing again and WriMo novel "Sleep" (dont know why I named it that) has since become far more personal for me. It is more of the story I was wishing to write, a story about loss and forgiveness and honestly, it's about being asleep for part of your life. Numb. Like you are missing part of your memory.

This story is about 7,000 words. It would be more if school wasnt kicking my ass and if I wasnt so worried about other things. It is very obvious I will NOT make that 50-grand word requirment for me to send my stuff to be shopped into a real book, but I like this new project so much that I shall continue to work on it on my own. (Maybe I will crank it out and get an agent by next year...yeah right)

But anyway the point it if you see me within the next...when ever I get it done written....I may be awkwardly emotional because I have been writting and it is a rather emotional thing for me...it hasnt seeped into my real life but it doesnt mean it wont. I still heart you all even if I seem down.

oh and on a side not (if you made it down this far...wow) I got The Fame Monster by Lady Gaga as an early b-day gift if anyone wants a copy of it let me know.

Today I was asked to write a journal about my past for my friends organization named Razor Thoughts. It deals with self-injury and addiction. And as much as I like my friend Dani, I find her request daunting.

How could I ever put in a single journal who I was, who I am, and who I still struggle to be? There is so much that many don't know, and I would be willing to open my heart and let all that I have fall onto my keyboard for her, but when you are in situation how do you know if something it to much. What would happen if I write everything that no one but me knows and it crosses a line?

Part of me doesn't want to write it because it is personal and I don't like tapping into that part of me let alone unlock the door.\

Then there are the big questions...who am I? Who was I? Are we the same? Is the place where I am the place I want to stay?

Ramblings of the sick and frazzle-brained. Clearly I am in no state to think deeply.

Love to all,
Kimber LeAnn

Never in my life have I been so excited to make costumes...well actually that's a lie I just usually give up before I get anything done. But as you know I am going to Ikky Con as a photographer, but I really wanted an excuse to wear folklore faery costumes so I am doing that.

I am doing 4 costumes (3 for con 1 for Halloween) but I am having a hard time with the costume design...I have th make up down like mad crazy....

She here's where you come in. They are based off of Melissa Marr's Wicked Lovely books which are based off of folklore. I the books there are 4 fey courts and I want to do one from each court....

There is the DArk court-Court of evil and lust
The Summer Court-court of the summer and emotions
The Winter Court-the court of drepressioin and winter
And The High Court-the court of balance and peace

please give me ideas to work from

Thanks,
Kimber LeAnn

So I desided to put all the past writing projects on hold. I don't know when I will finish editing and writing the other project I posted. I love that story like my child but I have found something more important.

So here is a tid-bit about my inspiration.

You may know her....KIMBERLY FREEMAN!

Yes One Eyed Doll's singer Kimberly Freeman has not only told me the story behind some of her extremely deep and emotionaly stirring songs. She has also given me the right to use her lyrics in my new project that is built off of the framework of her life and songs.

I am so greatful and deeply passionate about what she has allowed me to do with her story and voice.

For a slice of what my story is about listen to Kimberly's songs, "Jeremie" "Flowers Still Grow" "Overdose" and "Committed" but trust me nothing can really prepare you for the whole story. you can listen to her music on her site. [link]

I do want you to know that this story isn't really about Kimberly it's just based on her real life experiances. I also am aware that this is all really cryptic but I really believe that this is going to be a real novel and don't want to have all my details given away before I send it to a publisher.

Wish me luck.

Love,
Kimber LeAnn

I do. I was talking to a bunch of people and they convinced me to go to the ning and make a book club. So here is the site.

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feel free to join or not I don't care.

peace,
Adorable Doremouse