November is National Novel Writing Month and I had decided that I would give it a shot this year. The task is to write 50,000 words in a month and as hard as it seems, it is even harder when life comes into play.

Within the first day I had about 3,000 words written and I was planning on keeping that pace. Planning being the key word. I got to about 10,000 words and decided I hated it. It felt cheap and it wasnt the story I was trying to capture....needless to say I scrapped it. (I do still have it saved) I started writing again and WriMo novel "Sleep" (dont know why I named it that) has since become far more personal for me. It is more of the story I was wishing to write, a story about loss and forgiveness and honestly, it's about being asleep for part of your life. Numb. Like you are missing part of your memory.

This story is about 7,000 words. It would be more if school wasnt kicking my ass and if I wasnt so worried about other things. It is very obvious I will NOT make that 50-grand word requirment for me to send my stuff to be shopped into a real book, but I like this new project so much that I shall continue to work on it on my own. (Maybe I will crank it out and get an agent by next year...yeah right)

But anyway the point it if you see me within the next...when ever I get it done written....I may be awkwardly emotional because I have been writting and it is a rather emotional thing for me...it hasnt seeped into my real life but it doesnt mean it wont. I still heart you all even if I seem down.

oh and on a side not (if you made it down this far...wow) I got The Fame Monster by Lady Gaga as an early b-day gift if anyone wants a copy of it let me know.